Happy Scents

I used to fret over that Valentine’s day is for people with romantic relationships. I just shrugged my shoulder and thought it will be an ordinary day that will soon pass. Valentine’s Day is for those who fall in love, stay in love and work hard for the relationship to work. I have none of those.

Love evokes powerful and profound emotions. It can make or break people. It can inspire or push people to the edge. Sometimes people can do unthinkable (self-harm or hurt others) after failed relationships. After my heart has been shattered because of failed relationships, I shielded my heart from any pain. I dated just because but not seriously. I just could not let any man inflict harm in any way. I set an invisible wall that no one can get through.

Maybe during that time, I still could not move on from him, our relationship and memories we shared. I hold on to the relationship longer than I should be because I lost my father and had to endure being far away from my brother. I could not handle separation or suffer another loss. It was unbearable pain and very heartbreaking. My heart turned numb and cold as ice. I was in a dark place.

The love of Jesus and people around me made me realize life is worth living. I could not count how many times I kneel and bow down to Jesus to make me realize I’m worthy of second chances and be forgiven of my past mistakes. Slowly guilt was taken away and forgiveness soon rendered. Healing soon take place. Self-love was given and hardly earned.

Love can come from family, relatives and friends. It cannot be jealousy over friends and relatives who are having family of their own. It is being genuinely happy seeing other people beaming with happiness and love. What you give comes back? Love begets love.

It is quality time spent with immediate family members and girlfriends. It is fishing and camping with second family. It is pursuing things that makes you happy. It is unconditional love given by people who will never give up on you no matter what.

One Valentine’s Day a couple of years ago, I made a little surprise to special women in my life who were single and widow. I made them a card and buy them some chocolates. I was overwhelmed with beautiful messages/replies. Giving love is better than receiving love.

I thought I will be single forever and accepted it. Being single was not bad after all but then God had a different plan. I met a wonderful man who can make me laugh and made me believe in love again. It started with an honest and long conversations. We are a work on progress. I hope and pray to God that he will stay and fight with me to make everything work. I really did not believe in LDR, but I’m willing to take a risk for him. Hope he is the one. The next chapter of my life begins.

Happy Heart’s Day Everyone!

Keep believing in love. ❤️💕